It might sound surprising but weight loss surgery can leave you struggling to come to terms with the “new you”. Lots of us who were overweight at one time still spend a great deal of time feeling undeserving.
The first time I had a photo shoot to start building my website, I had to confront these feelings head on. As I made my way into Sephora for my makeover, I thought I should keep the engine running in my car to make a quick getaway in case I was exposed as a fraud. A fat woman trapped in a skinny woman’s body, who had cheated to get there.
What nerve I had wearing skinny jeans and daring to be photographed for the world to see. My niece came by to help me choose the outfits for my shoot, and when I saw the shoes she brought along, I had visions of falling flat on my face and my feet being permanently frozen in a pixie-like shape. Oh, the pain.
I conquered my fears, and the session was so much fun. It was very exciting working with a professional photographer, Laura Pedrick, and being transformed by a bona fide makeup artist! I discovered my runway persona. My mind has still not caught up with my body size and every other week, I see the overweight person I used to be when I look in the mirror. The doctors say that will go away after a while.
You know what I realized? Yes, we deserve to flaunt our personal styles. After all, it’s not just the outer image that others see, but our style reflects the joy and confidence that we have as a result of our new healthier selves. Weight loss surgery survivors rock!
I’d love to hear your experience. What do you most want to wear after bariatric surgery?
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